Ready or Not
Jacob Sutton
Dr. Mirksin
Dr. Mirksin
consider what Sheehy (and Erickson) say about "crises"
and how they are like "inner impulses." Reflect on your "readiness" for college and the change that you're living through. What makes this challenge difficult and maybe at the same time in alignment with where you are in your life?
Passages by Gail Sheehy, especially the second chapter has made me reflect on what it means to be "ready" for college? Before coming to music school, I would drive myself absolutely crazy, questioning if I really had the work ethic, the drive, the heart, and the passion to pursue what I love. I remember being in Cape Cod, a vacation my family takes every summer, and crying to my dad about how I won't make it in such an unstable career path such as music. I was afraid I did not have the work ethic, the independence to live on my own, and I was afraid of the learning curve of college. I had always been coddled in some way in my life, whether it was my mother constantly nagging at me to do my work, my teachers letting me makeup assignments without penalty, or the comfort of returning home to and venting to my parents about my problems. But in college, you aren't coddled in these ways. You are not guided through different challenges that come your way, you are expected to get through them on your own.
That being said, I'm kind of thriving here, in my own way. Having practice rooms at my disposal has ultimately made me a much better musician and I have found myself practicing for at least 2 hours a day. I am living on my own independently. Sure, I have help and support from both my friends and the college, but I'm doing much more on my own. I remind myself everyday that I am more ready for college than I think I am.
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